October 6

I´ve just so mad at everything. I know I´m about to start my period in probably a few days so thats´why, and I shouldn´t take my emotions too seriously in this phase of my cycle, I know, I know. But right now, I just wanna hit something really hard or fight with someone. I wish I would work today so I could argue with a customer - I know, that doesn´t really speak highly of me.

But I can´t help it.

I know it´ll pass, I know that´s not me, I know it´s only for a few days.

But I would love to cancel the lease of my apartment, break up my relationship, yell at someone and start a new life in a new country (preferably somewhere sunny and warm and with direct access to as many mangoes as my heart desires).

I know I won´t do any of those things.

I know I will make some lunch in a bit, maybe listen to some sad songs to cry to and release emotions, and life will go on.

Little update, it´s been three hours, they had my favorite Onigiri at the grocery store which have been out of stock for almost a month, so that´s great. I do feel a bit better, still mad at the world but I probably will keep my apartment and relationship.