todays mood tracker
one of my favorite Bowie songs
(also my airplane song I have to listen to during takeoff and landing)
It´s 10:52 pm, I just got back home and I feel like writing.
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Today was such a lovely day, even though it was off to a bad start. I promised my mum to go to the grocery store with her in the morning, but I overslept and woke up five minutes before we agreed to leave. I knew that leaving the house dehydrated and without having eaten was bound to turn into a disaster, and it did. I was impatient and in a shit mood and, let’s be real, not a big help to my mum at the grocery store.
My mood eventually got better after breakfast. It amazes me how 90% of the time, eating something cures my bad mood.
I spent the afternoon on the phone with my ex because we wanted to buy concert tickets together. A German band we both very much like had randomly announced a Tour de France for next March, and we decided to go on a little trip together. I really wanted tickets for the Paris show (obviously), and he wanted Strasbourg. In the end, we got neither. The only show we could score tickets for was Lille, which is better than nothing I guess.
In the evening, I met up with my dad for dinner at my favorite vegan sushi spot. It’s the best sushi I’ve ever had, and I dream about it constantly. It’s on the pricier side, that´s why I don´t go regularly when I´m in my hometown. Actually, I think I haven´t been there in a year or so. I mean, just look at this gorgeous sushi plate oh my god.
The relationship my dad and I have is a little difficult sometimes, even though we´re working on it. I´m happy we´re actively spending time together, just the two of us.
After dinner, we headed to the theater nearby. My hometown actually has a rather renowned theater. We watched a play about David Bowie and the books that shaped his life, it was a mix of music and literature which I very much enjoyed. They played his songs and combined it with excerpts of some of the books that shaped Bowie´s life. It reminded me a little of Patti (Smith) and the way she blends poetry with music, both in her songs and her live performances. Maybe that's why I loved the play so much. I think the combination of music and spoken word makes me feel instantly inspired.
I think I´d like to go to the theater more often, I don’t think I’ve ever been to the theater in my life. At least not in my adult life. It’s a funny coincidence because I picked up a biography about Bowie at the library in Berlin, which I’m currently reading. When I arrived in my hometown and took the bus from the train station, I passed by the theater and saw the advertisement for the Bowie play. Everything feels aligned.
There was a part where the whole theater went dark, and out of nowhere, a huge mirrorball appeared, and I was just in awe of everything. The lights twisted around the room, I don´t remember which song they played but I remember how happy that mirrorball made me.
I just love mirrorballs so much, they make me so fucking happy. I think I could be in the crappiest mood, but if you´d put me in a room with a glittering mirrorball reflecting little dots of light onto the walls and ceiling, I´ll be in love with life again. I don´t know what it is, but mirrorballs make me sentimental.
If I were rich, like really fucking rich, and lived in a house with a spare room, my dream would be a music mirrorball room. A room where I could turn off all the lights, with a huge fucking mirrorball that I could switch on, and the lights would twist and turn around the room. Maybe a little bit of red light. A big, cozy carpet on the floor to lie on. It´s important to lie on the floor.
If I were rich, my music collection wouldn’t be on CDs but on vinyl, and there would be a record player and a shelf with all my favorite albums. And since it´s my room, I could go in there whenever I wanted to. Lie on the floor, look at the mirrorball and its lights and listen to music. No distractions, nothing. Just my mirrorball, my music and me. That would be my dream. It´s probably never gonna happen, I mean who just has a completely spare room? As of now, I would be happy even finding an apartment I don´t have to share with flatmates, but that´s that.
I´m slowly getting sleepy. Maybe tomorrow I´ll make my own Kimchi, I´ve been wanting to do that for a while. There are so many things I wanna do, such as make kimchi, learn how to ferment foods, learn how to bake bread, learn about aromatherapy, learn Spanish, learn how to DJ, I could go on for a very long time.
Actually, my dad told me over dinner that he started baking bread, and that it´s actually quite simple. To be honest, I always thought you´d need some kind of bread-making machine, but apparently you don´t, according to my dad. He wants to send me a recipe. When I´m back in Berlin, I wanna try and make my own bread, I think that would be fun.
I just love being on vacation in my hometown, doing little things I never got around to doing when I lived here, and revisiting all the things I used to love.
Anyway, that´s about it for today. I´m getting sleepy; I´ll brush my teeth and go to bed soon-ish.
Take care, and I´ll talk to you soon.